This picture really says it all...that's me on top there, and the most wonderful, amazing, beautifully handsome, kind, sweet, sexy, loving man in the world  that I'm kissing.  And yes, Murgatroyd, he is a resident of the great country of Canada. 

John and I have been friends for months.  He came to visit me here in North Carolina in December.  From the moment I saw him walking out of Terminal C at the RDU airport, I was lost.  I can admit that now, though at the time, I kept telling myself that what I was feeling was finally meeting in person a great friend.  He is that...and so much more.

It was incredible how right being with him felt right away.  Neither of us were looking for a relationship.  As a matter of fact, we were pretty darned adamant that we weren't even open to one in our individual journeys.  Funny how reality tends to walk up, bite you in the ass and then wrap you in the most loving of arms.  We had such a good time during his visit, and became such fast friends, that love was probably inevitable. 

We haven't made any commitments toward a future together.  It just feels too good not to enjoy it while we can right now.  The whole international aspect of this thing may keep us from ever being more than the best of friends.  We're not worrying about that right now.  If that happens, I, for one, will count myself the luckiest man alive to have had more than that with John, even if it wasn't for always.  Towards that end, the first half of 2005 has me in Canada or John in the USA every 3-5 weeks, with no end in sight. 

For those who want to see what he really looks like, here he is.  I couldn't be prouder to call him my friend, and yes, my boyfriend.  Click the thumbnails for better views.  And yes, some of you may recognize him from BigMuscleBears.com, where he is in the top 3 of his age group for "likes" and in the top 150 for all profiles on BMB.  He's pretty...and despite liking a Lug like me, he's smart too.